| It's not paranoia when you know they're out to get you... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2008|05:57 pm] |
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My AP seriously hates me. I thought it was mostly my imagination, that i was really a terrible teacher and i was just deflecting the blame. But no, my Principal told me never to say anything to the AP without a witness present. Seriously, It's that bad. at least i know now that i'm not making things up. |
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[Nov. 11th, 2008|09:23 am] |
well, Veteran's Day means I have the day off... so I decided to check out the Roasted Coffee Depot in Graham. turns out it's my new favorite place, and I didn't know it! SOUTHERN PECAN COFFEE!!! need i say more? Momma and Dad usually keep me supplied in Berres Brother's coffee, and that's my favorite flavor (well, that or the highland grog, it's a tough call) and their blueberry muffins are fantastic. I think I'm going to move in. (Plus I can access Graham's free citywide internet. i'm too far on the edge of Graham to access it in my apartment...)
anyway, i'm just happy for some good news in my life, seeing as everything else in my life is going to hell in a sparkly dress... |
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[Nov. 8th, 2008|09:45 am] |
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I feel like i've fallen off the face of the earth. With everything I am doing, everything I've committed to doing, I have no time for myself. I am working 7-5:30 most days, the whole civic theater thing, fighting my old landlords (who say i owe them a month's rent for not turning in a 30 day notice- which i did- and sent it to a collection agency and i only just found out about this supposed charge last week) and stalkerish ex-not-quite-boyfriend... I am just so tired. i don't know how much longer i can keep going. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2008|12:09 pm] |
my stupid school district gave me a laptop computer... it's a PC. they say it will work better with the smart board that was supposed to have been installed in my classroom (six weeks later, i'm still waiting for the stupid thing...)
all of my lesson plans are in iCalendar, and no way to get it onto my stupid laptop.
all of my morning work assignments are in Appleworks because i hate stupid microsoft.
all of my grades are in Appleworks, all of my report cards and progress reports are in Appleworks, and all of my godsbedamned interactive lessons are for the Interwrite, not the stupid smart board that i don't even have! (Interwrite software not on the stupid PC, because the stupid people lost the software, making my own personal Apple the only computer that can actually use the things)
stupid district people wanted to know why i wasn't using my district laptop, and i couldn't really tell them they were stupid, now could I? |
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| i have no life |
[Sep. 22nd, 2008|04:28 pm] |
i am insanely busy, with work, and school, and random theater happenings, and i spend all my time doing stuff, and yet i have no life. I don't have time to think straight or watch movies or even get enough sleep.
it's rather pathetic, actually. |
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| only 173 more days with these kids... |
[Sep. 3rd, 2008|04:00 pm] |
This year is going to suck. Seriously. I like teaching and all, but my class this year has way too many kids for me to manage. I mean kids being pulled from my classroom in full fledged kicking and biting and screaming tantrums, escapees trying to get out of the classroom via the window, screaming "i'm on fire" as we go down the hall for a fire drill, tears and trying to hide IN A BACKPACK because of forgotten snacks, shoes off using them to hit oneself in the head while screaming "look at me, i can kick myself in the head", meltdowns on an epic scale- needing 'therapeutic holds' to restrain (all but sitting on the student) leaving the unfortunate teacher wanting to sit in the middle of the classroom laughing hysterically until the friendly men with the nice jacket that ties in the back take me to the quiet, padded room. (and did i mention that the fire drill wasn't so much a drill as the cafeteria somehow managed to set the kitchen on fire while we were on our way down to lunch, meaning that we didn't actually get to eat yesterday??)
yeah, i know what's wrong with public education. |
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| i like men in kilts |
[Aug. 23rd, 2008|12:53 pm] |
So, last weekend was Irishfest up in Milwaukee, and I decided (a little foolishly) to fly home. although it was in many ways a total disaster (with my mom throwing a temper tantrum and my dad responding in kind, leaving my little brother, sister, aunt and myself wandering around milwaukee with no apparent way back to the house) I still got to see Seven Nations and Gaelic Storm :). and lots of men in kilts. they're the best part... i have decided to add "wears a kilt" to the long list of things I wish for in a man (and my mother wonders why i'm still single...)
anyway, this week has been crazy-busy. it is quite possibly impossible to be a teacher without being slightly insane. sometimes i wonder what it would be like to teach in a non-union busting state. my $1500 bonus was busted down to $1053, for no aparent reason by the state, rat bastards. i had three hours of meetings on a TPWD (which means it's against regulations to hold meetings, but that didn't stop anyone) and really, i'm just trying to figure out what i'm going to do monday when they all come storming back. |
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[Jul. 28th, 2008|10:18 am] |
I took the weekend off (which I didn't really have time for, but that's besides the point) and read Cry Wolf, the new Patricia Briggs book. I enjoyed it, for the most part. I think Anna is a great character- and i could really relate to her- but there were a few times I wanted to just punch some of the other characters (Charles, specifically). I think it's always difficult when an author does a spin-off from another series, and giving secondary characters their own personalities. Invariably, there are little things that are different and for obsessive readers like me, i always notice when little things don't match up. Actually, that's probably more because I reread favorite books on a regular basis, and the Mercy books are some of my favorites. (and i totally understand why she would have to do that, to make the new story make sense, so I can overlook that)
anyway, after that i didn't want to write any of the three papers due this week, so i picked up another newish book, Dead to Me by Anton Strout. Ok, so the only reasons i picked it up was because Jerry O'Connell was on the cover. But it was a good book (and really, any book that mentions Intellivision has got to be good)
btc |
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[Jul. 21st, 2008|01:56 pm] |
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I am about to beat the tar out of the obnoxious sonofabitch and his crack whore of a mother. The purpose of going to the library to study is not so the little fucker can annoy the hell out of me- and when i asked him (politely) to stop kicking my chair his wench of a mother gets all up on me for "disrespecting her child" I told her (maybe not so politely) that if she couldn't control her demonspawn it wasn't my fault, and I have every right and expectation of not being harassed while studying. now she's making all these snide comments to her kid, acting as if I can't hear her. I swear- she says one more thing or that child comes within kicking distance, i will not be responsible for what happens next... |
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| fangirl blatherings |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|10:59 am] |
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While I was happy to see Billie Piper back on Doctor Who (best sidekick ever) it was slightly distressing that David Tennant barely showed up. (and i'm really not too keen on Catherine Tate- she's a bit too something... i don't know. mostly i just want to punch her) |
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[Jul. 17th, 2008|03:43 pm] |
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one of the other women in my class refers to me as The Rina. I'm not sure how i feel about my name becoming a title. |
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| All Hail the Mighty Phoneme |
[Jul. 14th, 2008|04:19 pm] |
This class may very well be the death of me. I'm not sure I understand half of what I'm reading, and Dr. Professor's ideas of direction lack things like... direction. here's hoping it improves some...
oh, and since i'm in a bad mood, $1,053 to fly from Raleigh to Milwaukee? I don't fucking think so! I know fuel prices suck, but thats $800 more than Easter-time. Ridiculous! |
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| lethargy is overwhelming |
[Jul. 12th, 2008|02:06 pm] |
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since i dropped my parents back off at the airport, i have done nothing by lay on the couch and sleep. I have another 350 pages to read in Overcoming Dyslexia, the text that is "strongly encouraged" to have been read before the class starts on monday, in order to keep up with other readings (and doesn't that just put the fear of God in one's heart). I am supposed to be helping out with VBS at this church and i'm supposed to meet someone in the great hall- and doesn't that just say it all? this church is more like a complex, and i have no clue where the great hall is, and i'm a little afraid to ask... some of these people can be a little... intense. Oh, they're all very nice, and i'm sure they'd point me in the right direction, but that's probably how i ended up in this predicament in the first place. Riddle me this- how did a nice lutheran end up teaching VBS at an episcopal church anyway? |
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[Jul. 9th, 2008|04:53 pm] |
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It turns out that when your parents help you move, it’s really difficult to hide just how big a dork you’ve turned in to. My mom borrowed my computer, and I thought nothing of it until she asked me “What’s that picture?” and I had to answer “Doctor Who, of course.” And having to explain away the trebuchet in the hall closet (everyone needs medieval weapons of mass destruction) or the fact that next to Jane Austen and Leo Tolstoy resides the entire works of Mercedes Lackey and a bookcase full of urban fantasy… |
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| What was I thinking? |
[Jun. 30th, 2008|01:34 pm] |
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Grad school + moving + my parents coming to visit = more stress than I can deal with at the moment. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2008|04:06 pm] |
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"culture" is too abstract a term to teach to 9 year olds. how the hell am i going to pull this one off (and more importantly, why am i trying so hard?) |
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[Jun. 24th, 2008|03:05 pm] |
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it is amazing how much time one can waste on the internets playing around when one should be working on one's paper... and i'm sure one will regret time wasted later, but for now... well, you know... youtube is freaking hilarious... |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2008|01:37 pm] |
I was loading some crap in my car to take to the thrift store after church, seeing as it's right near by. Since I didn't want to be running up and down the stairs in my good shoes, since i tend to trip on the stairs when I'm wearing wedges, I decided to put on my red and white flip flops. I didn't realize that I forgot to change them until I was on my way into church... a little too late to run away.
Well, it just so happened that the sermon was about how the preacher had accidentally grabbed his expired passport rather than his new one, and missed his flight and entire vacation to Italy, and how sometimes we do plain stupid stuff, but that confessing is good for the soul. In other words, confess your stupidity and use it to grow.
suddenly, i didn't feel quite so bad about wearing the wrong shoes to church (although everyone knows bright red flip flops look great with a lavender dress...)
It's funny how those sorts of things work out... |
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| to move on... or move in? |
[Jun. 20th, 2008|07:51 pm] |
how do you know it's time to put an on again off again relationship permanently in the off category and relegate the rat bastard to the official world of ex-dom? and what does i say about me that I keep going back/taking him back? i swore last time we were quits for good, but here he is, trying to hornswaggle his way back into my life. and i am tempted, sorely tempted. i just don't know if my heart can take any more battering. so is it love if i keep letting him back, or should i borrow my neighbor's shot gun next time he shows up at my door?
I am too old to be dealing with this.
or not old enough. |
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